Two years ago I became the luckiest girl ever when this stud became my husband:
And from that day forward life has been a RIDE. The absolute best ride of my life. Marriage is definitely not easy, but it’s so worth the hard times and challenges you face because you have someone who’s always willing to fight for you. I can be pretty darn stubborn at times, and Stuart has learned the best way to push when he needs to, and give me space when I need some. He continues to pursue my heart, encourage my passions and make me want to be a better woman. And now that we’re expecting our first child, I couldn’t be more excited that he is going to be my baby’s father.
Two years ago, before he watched me walk down the aisle, I gave Stuart a piece of my past. In 2007, (4 years before I even met Stuart) I wrote a letter to my future husband. It was my way of putting my hopes for a husband down on paper, and praying that God would give me the desires of my heart to be married someday. While I was hoping for the day I’d give my husband my letter, I was also trusting that if a husband wasn’t in my future, God would bring me other passions and dreams that would fulfill me.
A few people have asked us what that letter said, and before now I wanted to keep it private, but it’s a special part of our story, and one that I believe shows the faithfulness and goodness of God as not only the Lord, but also as my Heavenly Father.
Here are some precious pictures of my not-afraid-to-show-his-emotional-side husband, and the letter I wrote him for our wedding day:
A Love Letter to My Future Husband, written July 7, 2007
I don’t know who you are right now, or what you are doing at this very instant. But I am praying for you, and I look forward to the day we will meet. These past years have been hard waiting for you. There were many nights I cried myself to sleep, wishing you were here. And there were many days when I was glad you weren’t here to see what a mess I was. But I know those nights, days and tears are what make today so special.
From day one, every little girl dreams of her wedding day. At a young age, she carefully plans the event, acts it out, and hopes it will be everything she dreamed. I know this day may not be exactly what I planned in my childhood, but I know back then and even now, I could never know how very special it will be.
Although giving away my whole heart unreservedly is a scary thought, the thought of walking down the aisle towards my true love is even more amazing. Even now, I know it will be so much more than I could ever imagine. Not because of the flowers, the guests, the delicious cake, or even the beautiful dress I’ll wear. Because of you. Because even now, God is preparing us for each other and for this day.
The day that will join us as one. The day my daddy will give me away to you. And with tears of joy in my eyes, I will become your wife. I’ll forget all about the flowers and all the little details when I see you. I’ll promise to love you forever, and you’ll do the same for me. In that moment, you are all that will matter.
And because I am trusting that this day is in my future, I’ll think of you and keep myself pure. I want to be your brand new gift. I want to deserve you and make you proud of the woman I’ve become. So I’ll keep praying that God helps me stay pure and saved just for you.
I don’t know your past, and I don’t know now the mistakes you may have made. But I do know that God picked you just for me. So no matter what is in your past, I’ll love you with all my heart for our whole future.
I’ve looked forward to this day my whole life. And even though I don’t know who you are right now, I know you will be amazing.
And I can’t wait to love you for the rest of my life.
Love, your Bride
Our love story is full of God’s provision, God’s timing, and God’s handiwork. If I had it my way, I would’ve met Stuart years before I actually did…but God had work to do in both of us to prepare us for each other, so therefore it was the perfect timing. Those 5 years between the day I wrote this letter and the day it came true weren’t easy years of entrusting such a vulnerable part of my heart into God’s hands. But like I said, all the tears, waiting and loneliness was worth every second so that I could not only end up with the man of my dreams, but also be reminded that even when I cannot see what’s in the future, entrusting it to the Lord is NEVER the wrong thing to do.
Happy anniversary to my mister, and thanks to everyone who has played a part in our story, and has been an encouragement to us!