Living in Limbo.

I wrote on Facebook a couple days ago about how I’ve been a little absent from blogging lately. Life has just been a little peculiar lately. I don’t really know what word to use, but kinda like “peculiar.” Last week, before we left for our trip to Arkansas, was just one of those weeks where you make plans, but they just totally don’t pan out, and you have to be ok with it. Kinda like what I wrote about here. I was finishing up painting 2 canvases for my nephews (as belated Christmas presents), then Stuart got hit with a bad sinus infection/cold combo and I got hit with an issue with my back. Not fun. But the canvases turned out great, and we are both feeling better now! Whew.

Nephew Canvases

We spent the night with my brother and sister-in-law on our way to and from a support raising follow-up conference in Arkansas. It was basically a time to have some support raising guru’s check in to see how support raising is going, remind us why we’re doing what we’re doing (since support raising has a tendency to get monotonous and discouraging after being at it for 6 months). It was also so refreshing to spend quality time with some of our staff friends who are also raising support and experiencing many of the same emotions we are. 

Our weekend was all of that and so much more. It was so good to be around other staff who are experiencing the frustrations and difficulties, mixed with the victories and blessings that we are. It was great to just get away, take a couple days off raising support and focus back on what is most important in life: doing what God has called us to do. 

Arkansas

I’ve mentioned this before, but I sometimes have a tendency to look towards the future and forget to live intentionally right where I am. Support raising makes this especially difficult, since at times it feels like we are living in “limbo,” waiting until the rest of our support comes in, so we can move to Dayton and “officially” start our life in ministry. But with God, there is no limbo. There’s simply today. My life right now of raising support in Indiana is just as much a calling as my campus ministry in Dayton will be. It just looks different. It all comes down to living every moment of life to the fullest. Because really, we have no idea how many moments we have left. 

I’m reading through the book of Ruth right now, which also happens to be one of my very favorite books in the Bible. Ruth does such a great job of living in the present, even when it seems like it’s monotonous and rigorous work of gleaning wheat from a field in order to provide food for her mother-in-law, Naomi, and herself. But even though she was dealing with the death of her husband, and Naomi had become incredibly bitter, (even to the point of renaming herself “Mara,” which means “bitter”) Ruth decides to simply put her nose to the grindstone and work hard. She expects no special treatment, doesn’t complain, just does what needs to be done. She wasn’t even an Israelite, one of God’s chosen people, but because she chose to follow the Lord and work hard, He blessed her in ways she never dreamed of or expected. 

I hope to live my life like Ruth, not Naomi. I hope that in every circumstance I can learn to simply trust God because He can see so much more than I can. He knows the future, I only know right now. Trust in the future unknown is hard for me, but if I can learn to leave the future in the hands of my wonderful God, I can focus on living in the present. No matter what today looks like.

Be joyful always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

 

And just for fun, and because I just can’t get enough of him, here are some more super cute pictures of my nephew Griffin. (Levi wasn’t as available for photo ops…too busy eating and sleeping.) 

Griffin