You may or may not have noticed that I’ve been slightly MIA from blogging lately. There’s a very good reason for that.
It’s serious, guys. I was a little critical of what exactly went into the whole nesting “thing,” but it’s for real. I am NOT one of those people who normally loves organizing or cleaning, but it’s like someone else has taken over my body and all I want to do is organize, clean, and prepare our living space for our little man. Every time he catches me organizing or cleaning, Stuart goes, “you’re nesting again huh?” (I was serious that it’s not one of my strengths…)
I’ve also been reading a TON. I know I will never be fully prepared for labor, birth, or being a mother, but I will be as prepared as I can be through every book I can get my hands on! My current FAVE is The Birth Book by Dr. Sears and I hear his book, The Baby Book is also fab. (Nerd alert: I just renewed The Birth Book from the library so I could read the whole thing again, and I’m picking up The Baby Book from the library tomorrow! I’m pumped. Don’t judge.)
I also “attended” an online retreat by Thrive Moms last week, that was about being a Warrior Mom. I was snuggled up in bed in my sweats, and just basked in the surreal moment of learning about being a mom, while my baby boy moved and kicked in my tummy, and my other baby, Stell, snuggled up next to me.
So when it comes down to deciding what I’m going to do with my free time, between blogging, reading or spending time with Stuart, the latter two usually win out these days. Stuart and I have been very intentional about enjoying some sweet time together, while it’s still just the two of us. I know our relationship will change a lot once we’re a family of three, and I want to make sure we never forget that our family began with just the two of us.
We’ve been spending a lot of time getting our space at my mom’s ready for the first month or so of Baby Grand’s life while we’re still living there, by organizing his clothes, sleeping space, and other baby items. This little corner is my current favorite to just stare at :) (Complete with his future BFF and guard dog…)
I’ve officially began packing my hospital bag, which makes me feel equally prepared and totally freaked out all at the same time. It reminds me what I’ll be facing when that bag lives up to it’s purpose…
Whenever I think about the enormous change that’s getting closer, I often feel very unprepared (yes, despite all the reading I’m doing!). But God has been teaching me so much about His amazing provision through our journey of raising support, that it reminds me He will also provide everything I need to be a good mother. God works through our weaknesses so that we can know He is the one who makes us strong. I know that no matter the amount of books I read, the most important thing that will prepare me for motherhood is a strong relationship with my Heavenly Father. He is the one who will give me the strength to face sleepless nights, (and for those of you who know me, you know I will ONLY be able to face those through the power of Jesus!) a colicky baby, and the blowouts that sometimes come immediately after a diaper change.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
So in conclusion, although I’ve really missed blogging, I’m loving this time of preparation for motherhood. Other than my weekly Baby Grand updates, (which I didn’t even get to this week!) I probably won’t be blogging a whole lot for a little while. We go through different seasons in life, and right now, my writing is taking a backseat to reading and nesting. I know I’ll get back to blogging more consistently one day, and I definitely look forward to that day, but God is bringing out my passion and excitement for becoming a mother right now, and I’m loving that even more :)